Live.laugh.love

I honestly don’t know what to do…like I love you so much, I don’t know how you can do that to someone you love….these past two months have shown me so much of what I don’t want in life and what I do want in life. When you’re nice you are the nicest person on earth,the person I fell inlove with…but when you’re mean? You’re so Fucking mean and tear me down and go crazy…yesterday keeps playing in my head over and over and over. I’ve never been so scared…I’m never scared but how could you do that? I’m sorry that I couldn’t be the one that made you better…I feel like it’s all my fault, like maybe if I didn’t say the things I did that maybe things would be alright and I would be waking up to you and not waking up to a sore bruised arm….I feel like maybe if I would have shut my mouth then maybe you wouldn’t be so hurt and we would be okay and we would be so inlove again…I still want you after everything but i know I can’t because I have to do what’s best for me…and what’s best for me is getting away from you…I’m sorry and I love you but I hope you find someone who changes you and doesn’t make you so mad and who doesn’t challenge you…I’m sorry and I love you so much.

THINGS I LIKE

• when people use my name in conversation
• when people say “this reminded me of you!”
• when people remember little things i say/do
• when people genuinely thank me for things i’ve done for them
• when i think of the same thing at the same time as someone else and you give each other the look

(Source: vogelbird)